I just found out last September that I have Lyme Disease, and I have been a mixed bag of emotions since then. Part of me was so relieved that I wasn’t crazy! There really is a medical reason for the struggle I am going through! I thought for so long that I was just weak or lazy or maybe depressed. No matter what it must be something that I had to fight inside myself. I thought if I could just get my mind right then this “thing” that was going on with me would go away.
Whenever I would tell people that something was wrong, it felt a lot of times like they thought it was all in my mind or that I was just over-tired, over-stressed, or depressed. When people see me, they are totally unaware that I am battling a debilitating disease every moment of every day! At least now I know I’m not fighting myself. I’m fighting Lyme! And, with God’s help, I know Lyme will lose. I will have the victory in this life or the next, hopefully this one and hopefully very soon.
I Have Lyme Disease – Now What Do I Do?
Since going to the doctor and finding out this thing I am fighting is called Lyme, I have found a few ways to fight.
Some of these include:
- Drinking meal replacement shakes every morning instead of a meal (I will post my yummy recipe as a separate post here shortly).
- Eating less sugar in general – I eat more protein. This seems to cut my cravings way down.
- Using essential oils
- Drinking lots of water
- And trying to cut myself a little slack and get a bit more rest.
- I have also found it very beneficial to find out about others who are battling chronic disease. It is nice to know I am not alone and their successes inspire me.
I Have Lyme Disease – I Can’t & I Want
I need inspiration because I am constantly frustrated. The biggest thing that frustrates me are all of the “I can’t-s!” I can’t do everything that I want to do! I am a type A bust it out kind of person. I like to accomplish things, see change, move forward, and do STUFF.
I am usually the queen of multitasking, but right now I feel like I’ve got my energy dispersed to 10 zillion different things and the little amount that I have to put forward to those things is not cutting it. I WANT MORE!
I want to use my creativity to rehab furniture, upscale my home, and build this blog.
I want to be supermom and super-homeschool teacher lady.
I want to exercise and eat right.
I want to have “date night” with my husband and buy him nice gifts.
I want I want I want.
I Have Lyme Disease – What does God Want
Hmmm… Maybe I should try “God wants…”
God wants me to love myself like He loves me!
God wants me to have peace and let Him take the wheel.
God wants me to focus on Him and the rest will go from blurry to crystal clear.
God wants me to fly on His back for a while before I am able to use my wings to soar.
He wants me to rely completely on Him and never want to leave that feeling of total comfort and joy.
He wants to give me what I can handle to train me to be a strong warrior.
Wow, writing this blog really is part of my healing. I have gained a lot of clarity just from writing this post.
Isn’t it amazing how God works? I CAN write this blog. Even if I am exhausted sometimes and my posts may be jumbled and seem imperfect to me, I know this is what God wants for me. One more step. One more post. One more Bite of the elephant. The more I write, the more of those I realize that I’ve got sitting on my chest.
Time to breathe again. Time to soar on my Father’s back for a while.
Check out my other posts about my battle with Lyme Disease Here:
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