I am currently trying to add more DIY Projects to my blog, but I found this from a while back and wanted to share. I know there are other frustrated Moms out there. Just letting you know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
The Battle is Real:
People have told me that I always look “put together,” and that I always seem happy. Well let me tell you, on the outside I might look like Mary Poppins or the lollypop guild scene out of Wizard of Oz (not really…), but inside of me it’s like one of those major battles straight out of Lord of the Rings is ever-raging.
During the turmoil, horns blow, and another army comes in to fight. For example, one of my kids starts crying when I’ve just entered into a deep sleep – Horn Blows. Sometimes the army within me that appears is a good one, other times it feels like evil is winning the fight. The baby cries, and I wake up feeling like one of those jumbo nasty orcs or that big flaming eyeball from Lord of the Rings. I want to be angry. I want to give in to the pity party. I think “I can’t do this anymore. I cannot be without sleep another night. I am losing my sanity.”
Keep it Together:
Usually I am pretty good at managing those emotions in my actions. I endure. I try to focus on the good things. I know I will look back on these days and see them as such a short time. I will wish I just rested more. That I hadn’t let the turmoil and difficulty overshadow the wonderful, beautiful, and miraculous time that I get to spend with my children. They are truly a gift….., but it is much easier said than done….
Let There Be Light:
It seems like the good in me is a tiny force against so much darkness. It is difficult for me to gather all of the peace-keeping forces within myself and radiate light. However, I must be succeeding somewhere because I do feel overall that I am a genuine person. What is coming across on the outside must reflect in some way what is happening on the inside. Even though battles rage, light will always overcome darkness! Even when I feel like I am in a deep dark pit, just a tiny flicker of light illuminates my current situation and leads me through that dark place to safety.
I am ever-aware that another battle will come, but I know who to put my FAITH in. God is always with me. I have a direct connection to the Light!
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