I woke up a couple of days ago with a very sore and very swollen throat. I didn’t think much of it, because my youngest daughter had been sick the week before. I just assumed my body was trying to fight it off. Then I woke up yesterday and it felt worse. I decided to take a look with a flashlight. It looked like a classic, but disgusting case of strep throat – like a picture you hope you don’t see when you look up “strep” on google! Ick!
Anyways, today, I decided to get checked out. I got the strep test and it came back negative. They tested me for Mono, which also came back negative. The doc decided to treat me for strep, since it appears to be a classic case. They sent a test in to the lab to double check that their tests were working. Anyways, I am sure that with medicine and rest, I will recover – at least physically….
HOWEVER, I don’t think that my “mommy ego,” ever will be the same. I asked if the doc could do an iron test to see if my oldest daughter is deficient. BIG MISTAKE!!! I am a glutton for punishment, I guess. My daughter does NOT do anything she does not want to do!!! It was a fight to say the least. We talked back and forth about holding her down, and I did my best attempt at bribing her and giving her the stern “you have to do this” speech. Nothing! She wasn’t having it.
This is not the first time this has happened. There have been various trips to the nearest big city (100 miles away I might add) to have dental work done. We have stayed overnight, even, and had special medicine given to her that was supposed to help her relax and let them do the work needed. Still didn’t work. She was having none of it!
This has been quite a long while ago. In the meantime, I have been feeling like a neglectful parent because her teeth are still rotting away. My daughter has assured me that the next time she goes in for dental work that she will cooperate. Today’s display reminded me why I have been avoiding it like the plague.
I would rather have strep throat anytime, in fact, than try to get my daughter to cooperate at the doctor.
I feel like a mommy failure. I feel embarrassed, angry, and frustrated. No, of course I do not want my daughter to have to be held down to get blood drawn or dental work done! I do not want to look like a bad mom if I suggest that they do OR don’t hold her down to get the necessary work done. Taking my daughter in for the doctor or dentist is a fail for me either way! I can’t win. Needless to say, she did not get blood drawn today, and I will not be taking her in to the dentist in the “near” future unless they think it is necessary to put her to sleep to do the work. Also terrifying to me…. anyways, it all sucks!
Also, to really add insult to injury, I got weighed while at the doctors today! I have gained back every pound that I had lost during my Lyme treatment last year – 30 POUNDS!!! I feel like crawling in a hole! Nah, instead I think I’ll have some cheesy potato soup. Mmmmkay. Add on another pound. I really am going backwards. Sad Sad Sad.
Anyways, I am not really sure where I am going with all of this, but I needed to vent. I don’t want my blog to be a big dumping ground for my emotions, but I had to get it out. I guess it is time for me to pull out the “Strong-Willed Child” parenting book again. I’ll swallow that down with my lovely antibiotic for the next few days. I’m not 100-percent sure either will help me feel better or BE better. 🙁
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