Dance Alive

Did you ever experience something that just made you feel young and alive?

It has been a long time since I have felt anything like that. From the time I was a little child to when I was in my first years of college, I danced.

When my favorite song would come on, I would just slam, like go crazy.

I don’t know when I stopped, but with Lyme and life weighing on me, I didn’t feel much like dancing. A lot of the time, I didn’t feel very alive either. I was like one of those sci-fi humans in some sack of goo where you only see the outline of the face stretching out, trying so hard to gasp for air.

 

I have been finding more and more tears in that disgusting film and finding oxygen once again.

The last few days I have been listening to some Christian pop/dance music that has awoken something in my heart that I had allowed to move back into the shadows and fall asleep.

 

 

 

 

I didn’t know how badly I missed my old friend (dance).

Music is like air to me. It’s like a huge and fulfilling gulp of oxygen. When I sing and when I dance I experience it like it is tangible. Alive. A world of colors. If you’ve ever seen Ratatouille where the Rat experiences food like colors popping and swirling, that’s what I’m talking about. Except with music. I guess I experience some foods like that, but that’s beside the point.

I also thought about the movies “August Rush” and “Once” the other day; two of my favorite movies of all time. My heart came alive in the same way when I watched them. I experienced music in a new way. I felt alive in my bones. I felt joy.

Joy? Passion… Value…? I have been thinking about these things quite a bit lately. Mostly because I know there is more. God has placed a burning fire in me. It is almost radiating out of my pores. I can feel it.

Maybe that’s just my body screaming to dance.

Oooh, another good song. Here I go. Pray for me that I don’t whack my head into something or break anything. My dog barks when I dance if that gives you any indication. Haha. I don’t care.

 

You know, God is so hilarious. Here are some lyrics from the current song playing on my Pandora:

I Feel so Alive by Capital Kings

I feel so alive, alive
Inside, inside
I’m breaking through the haze
To a brand new day
‘Cause my heart has been revived

(I feel so alive)
I feel a fire inside
It’s like a whole new ride
I feel a sweet increase
Consuming all of me

GOD BLESS YOU – especially if you are a crazy closet dancer like me.

Ok one more thing – after I wrote this post, I went to take a shower. I decided to put some lotion on, which I RARELY do (you’re probably thinking – major TMI at this point). Anyways,  I decided to use this smelly lotion that I wasn’t sure I liked, but was going to go for it today anyways… I glanced at the tube and you wanna guess the name of it? – DANCE TO LIFE!!!!!!! Literally LOL!!!!! So good! God still speaks!!! He speaks to me through music and product names apparently. Haha. I look for Him everywhere, and I find Him!!! He is so good. Get to know Him and I know you will agree.

Love,